I want neither

[From our love]
I want neither
the sweetness of honey
nor the sting of the bees
Sappho
I guess it´s pretty silly from an outsider´s point of view, but the thing is that when you actually are in the middle of a roller coaster ride, there´s no easy way out.
This man is not free, doesn´t want to be, but he also wants all, the oldest story told in human relantionships. He likes another girl, why, I don´t know, and i am not sure that there actually needs to be a reason, maybe she´s pretty, maybe she´s funny, who cares. Probably with her he sort of misses the thin line between a girlfriend and a friend, a buddy. And at the same time that´s what he doesn´t like about her. Or maybe I am just giving him more angles than he´s capable of, and he´s just your average prick.
But sometimes when they are playing the flirting scene he has this naughty boy look in his eyes and she looks so young and full of curiosity for a moment. And when he kisses her forehead and puts his arms around her and they lay there just listening to the thunder beating of their hearts, knowing that there are no tomorrows, no we will see with time, no holding hands in public and loving corny phrases, it seems almost perfect. But then the morning comes and the hard light of dawn hits them, and in her eyes you find an old woman, old as every women in the world, old as years and years and lifes that she might have lived before. And then she can´t recognize him.