Monday, May 03, 2010

So they are all cunts,
That is the final argument.
no, no, seriously.
3 in the morning, you are awake.
What comes to your mind?
Should I finish that degree, should I tell him something about the way he drinks, should I be more in touch with my parents, did he like the birthday present I gave him? He loves me? My parents love me? Am I a disappointment for them? Do I hate my life?
yeah yeah yeah that same old bullshit.
I´ve been trying to kill myself twice this week, without success, (someone arriving sooner than he should have.
And you know what? Today is his birthday and I get him the most amazing gifts and he was like: oh, this is very nice.
When did all started to go wrong?