Please take this cancer back

My illness, the "maladie", will not kill me easily.
Euthanasia.
Those who are against it don´t know anything about the pain, the loss of self respect, all the little things that give you some dignity when looking at the mirror and claiming to be a human being.
really, please someone help me.

Take my life

One thing leads to the other, a snake biting its own tail, the beginning is the end is the beginning (thanks B.C.) and I don´t know anymore how it all started.

now I just want to die.

to afraid and to silly to do it by own hand.

not even for that I´ll be remember.

is there anybody who can help me?

intensity

So,
that´s all, I guess.

Not even goodbye.

No "let´s be friends"

nothing.

And it hurts as I´ve actually know you.

It´s night

So we are back to where we were before.
You won´t speak and damn me if I´m going to be one breaking up the silence.
It is silly, we´ve built this wall around and between us, leaving outside common sense and our feelings towards each other. I know we are so good together and at the same time so destructive. Now you are probably outside working, as I have been, but we are so stubborn we would not let the other know. We like it complicated. So now both of us sit in our rooms wondering where we are and if we are thinking of each other. No, I don´t think of you every night and second. No, I don´t sigh at your image, longing for your smile. That would be not knowing who we are.
I think of you. I know you. I´ve seen your demons.
That´s more than enough.
That´s more than you know about me. Will ever know about me.

A woman playing the cello

i´m angry with you

Long distance idea

Oh, it´s amazing how boring people can be.
I don´t like ping-pong, i don´t like hypocrytes, i´m bored to death of existencialist stucked ups who think they are smarter than anyone, i think people who like to be trendy by not being trendy are stupid and i have to say i enjoy much more this side of the moon.