pain

God
please
I am looking for forgiveness,
here and only here I cry my secret, my burden,

should I be punished?
does hell fall upon those who have lived in its edege for too long and daringly cross its limits?

please it´s been so long since my life was taken away from me, i can´t remember anymore who i was before.

but take this away from me.
or sink me into oblivion so I shall not have memory.

And when the end comes, I know I´ll be alone. I can never go home.

Take this evil from my heart and leave me laying in the cold, sleeping, the long dream of snow.